For many years now, I have been praying for the woman of God that He has for me, I have thought about what I would like to find in that woman. Besides the fact of just wanting a woman of God whose passionate for God, and loving me for me. That she would look past the fact that I have a disability, that I don’t look like all the other good looking guys that are out their. That I may not always be able to do everything that I can now, in the future. Being able to do ministry together. I have friends that stand with me in prayer for my future spouse. Even though I am believing in faith for my future spouse reality is, that I may not find her. God doesn’t promise us that we will ever find a future spouse. I have thought about the reality of not finding her, and what will happen. Paul speaks about being single, and being called to the life of singleness, and I can tell you with everything that I am, that I am definitely not called to the life of singleness. 7 [c]Yet I wish that all men were even as I myself am. However, each man has his own gift from God, one in this manner, and another in that. NASB Living a life of Singleness can be a real thing, because that is exactly what Paul lived, he lived a life of Singleness. How he did it, or how he did it is beyond me, but were not talking about Paul. I have had many people tell me that well when your not looking you’ll find the one, and that may be true, in my opinion, I think that goes into the same situation of living the life of Singleness. It will work for some, but not for others. In my mind, I’m afraid that if I don’t look for her, than I will miss her, and if I miss her, I may never get married. Do I believe that their is only one person out their for all of us, no, not at all because if that was the case, than we would be looking for a needle in the haystack with the 7.6 Billion people in the world. I have gone through the scenario of what will happen if I don’t find the one, will I be disappointed, possibly, would I ever be angry, at God, and why He never allowed me to be married, probably not, because their’s a reason, for everything. Though when we get to heaven, and I get to ask him questions, that will probably be one of the questions that I would ask him, is why did I never find the one that you had for me. Me being the shy guy that I am, He will probably say see that girl, that you talked to, and you were friends with for many years, thats the one you were supposed to ask out, but you never did. Probably a very true statement, though God allows us to have free will, and make our own choices, so I would never be angry at God, if I don’t get married. I am grateful for the guy friends that I do have around me, that will support and encourage me during this time, of singleness.
The other side of the coin is the possibility that she is out their, and I just can’t find her, or haven’t found her yet, and I truly hope that is the case. Regardless of what happens, I will always do my best to put God first, to do what it is that He has for me, because that is what God wants us to do. We will go through difficulties, and trials in life, but we must remember that trials and difficulties are not the be all, or end all of life we are to have Joy, and enjoy life. 18. Psalm 32:11 Be glad in the Lord, and rejoice, O righteous, and shout for joy, all you upright in heart!. Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Romans 12:12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Romans 12:15 Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep.
We need to enjoy life, I need to enjoy life, we can’t let someone or something stop us from enjoying life. If I never find her, if I never have a girlfriend, which I hope I do at some point, I need to enjoy life. God tells us to rejoice, God tells us that we have to have a life filled with hope, and joy. I know I’m not the only one thats wondering about what happens if I never find the one, what happens if I have to live a life of singleness, or live a life by myself. We need to be okay, we need to realize that we are complete in and of ourselves, and we don’t need a significant others to complete us. We can live life being single, happy, enjoying life, and living life more importantly the way that God wants us to live.